i hate adjusting in a totally new environment. it's terrible. without the usual friends.
school is boring. lectures after lectures. and everyone is like listening so attentively. doing those examples and question. i feel so slack. but i'm just so super duper lazy to settle down and get started. am i really suited for jc life?
and yea. i'm not joining co. tj co is to stressful. i'm giving up something which i hold so dear. i begin to question my love for co and zr. if i really love it. i would join tjco regardless of anything. but. i didn't. but deep down. co is my love. but i can manage the stress that i will go through in tjco. i'm a failure. such a failure.
